Anticipating life

Hi..

Not many things happening at this time ..so nothing much to blog about. I am on a weekend trip to Mysore to meet old friends(not so old!).It's always refreshing to see a face after a year,which you were used to a year back. Anyways I am having fun out here till now. I have always been ranting and making ruckus about things like goal,ambition,purpose of life to myself and to every other person who looks like to be taking it. I always felt or still feel that a person who lives the days just for the sake of it is an utter waste on the face of the planet. And the ball has almost every time rolled to my feet when I look around for such people. I am such a loser,I used to think, until I slowly started sorting things out and seeing things more clearly. I read this the other day which meant,'Not all men can be heroes,some have to sit on pavement and clap when heroes pass by'. Some might take this as an offense to their self pride but I think thats how this world works. There has to be only one winner! and the truly deserving one always wins! like it or not. I dont in anyway rule out the question which naturally arises after this," Why can't that winner be me?". Yes it could possibly be you, but do you know?, or how do you know?.There are millions of them who can do the same shit as you and/or there are so many who are more capable than you, somewhere hidden. I wonder why people take so much of tension when it comes to job. Yes I agree that there has to be a sense of seriousness and responsibility with which every task has to be done. But that doesn't mean you fry your brain out in the process. I was literally struggling to find what I love- the purpose of my life.Really had a tough time in trying to choose one thing that defined a part of me in itself,of which I could call my life a part of, like a word in a sentence,but in vain! Then I began to realise that, if at all there was such a thing which would attract me then it would have by this time. There is no point in searching endlessly for it. Because then it turns out to be something wherein I find everything to be made for myself, ending up more confused. I think its better to tread the road and always be on the look out, offcourse this is different than the previous thing , wherein you lookout for things and just tread the road only to lookout for more. I think I have become more clear and feel happy that this has happened to me . Going for a trip to some place not decided yet!. Look out for the pics - Yes I have a Cam this time :D .