4/1/2006

Sitting in the office waiting for some work to come my way ....waiting till the clock ticks 10'o'clock for that routine onsite call..can be really stagnating... It really makes you think , to do something more sensible(Like coding !! Most of my frens wil want to kill me now!) . But it wont let you because it has spread the poison .
Its a slow poison . You won't know when it started taking u in ..when it spread through ur brain ..intoxicating and paralysing you ...but you will still be alive till that moment of death.

This is a software engineer ..always thinking he has been earning more than his father used to at this age...always dreaming about the 6 figure bank balance at the end of the year(which is next to impossible)....and finally dreaming of that dream girl who will come into his life and caress his tired fingers !! . Tryin to find that gal in evry other female like human being; right from the receptionist to cubiclemate or to someone waiting for the bus.

How strange are human requirements and the different stages a human being is inevitably made to go through(Atlest someone who doesnt dare enuf to break the rules n not follow the 'path to b taken') .
I see these strange creatures who right through their graduation do nothing other than cramming up things , just bcos it had equations which they cannot inderstand , but unfortunately is a 10 marker in the question paper next morning . They want to score marks , more and more of them . But they won't really care about how things work . They want jobs . They are bound to get them after they blind the interviewer with the weight of the marks in their resumes . Now is the moment of real test of their manship . They want a girl , just for passin some time off in the office cafe or for some serious relationship . I have seen people desperately vying with each other for that 'Ms. My gal ' . Some or most are successful in whatever their motives .
This string of events and the responses of a normal human being to them is so amazing. All of us do it , most, completely unaware of it, or of whats drivin us. We are all running , to noland ..no one really knows or don't bother to . I dont know if I have been a faiure in all these normal aspects of a young 24 year old male,just because I have been stopppin,turning bak n takin notice of such common things , way too often . And I really dont bother( but i have started) . But such things still amazes me inspite of the ease with which they can be shrugged off as pretty normal .
Something must be wrong . I really dont know . I have to find an answer to all this .